Today's Update

[potatowitch]

~ R passed his driver's test and has a license now, so we've been looking into getting a car. He knows what kind he wants, and I'm indifferent since I can't drive and have less than zero interest in learning, so it mostly comes down to what R wants. His parents came up to drive us to the dealership today to get the ball rolling, and we should hear back from the finance department in a couple of days. Hopefully by the beginning of next week, we'll have a car and will have an easier time getting around the city.

~ I didn't anticipate I'd be doing much walking when I went out today, since I was mostly sitting in a car, so I didn't bring my cane. Turns out that the amount of walking I did, unaided, from the car to the apartment was enough to leave my legs shaky and weak for hours. It wasn't much walking at all, maybe 100 feet at the very most, but without any support, apparently my body was all, "Nope, not letting you do that again!" That's a definite decline from how I was even 6 months ago, and I really don't like that.

Just one more thing to tell the rheumatologist about, I guess, when I finally get that appointment.

~ Still feel like I'm sleeping far too much and can't concentrate on things. That's why days go by where there's no journal entry here. I just... don't do anything. I watch a little TV, play a little bit of a video game, read a little bit of a book, and that's all I can manage. Today I managed to both finish a book and shower, and combined with the trip out to the car dealership (which again, consisted of me mostly sitting in a car and not doing much), I feel wrecked. This is why I had to force myself to the conclusion that I have to put my passion projects on hold. I don't know when the good days and bad days will be, nothing's reliable, and if what little I did today has wiped me out, I can't expect myself to do much of anything with any degree of regularity.

Some days I hate it. Other days, I don't have the energy to spare to hate it, and I just sink into apathy.